guilty

i am feeling guilty today. over the weekend while taking a nap (at my parents’ place) i was disturbed with my nieces who snuck into the room to play with the phone, i shouted at them and they got a fright and now i am feeling guilty about that. i am such a grumpy old man… i seriously need to learn more patience, especially when it comes to children. how do i ever expect to teach children when i can hardly tolerate them?! *sigh* on the other hand having a conscience like mine sucks because it only works well in hindsight! my colleague who is a mother to a 3 year old has told me to not feel guilty for shouting at them because she says that i am teaching them proper behaviour, but that has done nothing to quell the guilt!

oh well… hopefully my little nieces will forgive me and i will make it up to them by taking them to the zoo or something. still too young to take them to a ballet so that will wait until they are about 5, granted they will be seeing me perform in november.

a week left until the big week and now the exam nerves are swimming up a storm in my stomach, it really is starting to sink in that i am going to be doing this and very soon. wow! time flies…

vix has scheduled my classes this week and it looks like i am finishing at 8pm most nights and so it will be a late week for me. i somehow need to add in swimming into the regime this week as i really do still need to lose some inches before the exam, i won’t say anymore in this regard as it now only leads to disappointment especially when i don’t go to the gym. i managed a swim session last week thursday but my muscles nearly siezed from the effort of swimming against the current caused by waterjets. i have learned that to increase the resistance (kill oneself) while swimming you should swim in the lanes that have the waterjets, helps when you are swimming with the current but the resistance makes up for that when going back!

now that ‘heroes’ season 3 has finished airing i need to catch up and watch the remaining episodes. i can’t say that i was muchly pleased by the storyline when i left the series at episode 13, so let’s see what tim kring is bringing to the table but from the look at some reviews there isn’t much hope for the series surviving my criticism.

time to get going and enjoy a great class of ballet. 5 classes until my exam, i can do this…

light and love to you all…

(‘guilty’ is performed by the rasmus and is taken from their ‘dead letters’ album)

~ by freddy on 4 May, 2009.