freak out

it’s official… i am trying not to panic! it’s not going so well today seeing as i am at panic stations, nausea has taken control and i have this overwhelming need to sleep! i am a little freaked out, last week was good in the sense that i had ballet to fill up my time and now with the injury i am stuck at home studying for my french exam. you would think i would be more motivated though seeing as my exam is in less than 2 weeks!

ok. not going to panic right now, but i am borderline.

i am still in the process of finding alternative ways of earning income seeing as engineering really hasn’t been working out for me. i want to go into editing and proofreading and now i am in a process of trying to get myself prepped for that. who knew that there would be so much prep work for editing, but then again i am not one for jumping blindly into something. jumping yes, but i have to at least have some knowledge of what i am getting myself into. have some books on article writing and copyediting and now to actually read them. let’s hope that over the next few weeks i can maintain sanity (less the panic) long enough to actually read and finish some books. speaking of which, i have finished two books in the last week. i ready ‘memoirs of a master forger‘ by william heaney and ‘my horizontal life’ by chelsea handler. the former being a fictional autobiography of a book forger who can see demons and the latter being a non-fictional account of miss handler’s sexual adventures. if you are in the market for a good laugh then i can definitely recommend chelsea handler’s book. review to follow…

no ballet this week has really put a damper on things this week. trying not to dwell on it though and even trying to focus my attention on other things (like studying and my quilt panel which is due for november) and with the panicking and general freaked out me this week nothing seems to be happening past sleeping studying.

i really hope that things change for me soon. mentally that is…

(‘freak out’ is sung by avril lavigne and is taken from the album ‘under my skin‘)

~ by freddy on 14 October, 2009.