complicated

gah!

my hamstring still hurts and my mood is not doing me any favours because of this diet i am on. i have spent the majority of my time reading these past two weeks. i have finished ‘the twilight saga‘ and i must admit that it is a rather good series of books to read. the sparkly vampire thing is quick to get over with and then you sort of get dragged into the story. it didn’t help that the main character ‘bella’ was depressed through most of the second book, but i managed through it well enough.

right now i am feeling at ends between my ballet and my writing. it is slowly starting to dawn on me that i can’t do both, with equal zest, as much as i would love to. i just can’t choose, how do you choose which twin child to keep?! i will have to deal with this somehow and see what happens. also, another spanner in the works is that i am seriously contemplating getting back into engineering but (and it’s a big but) i am looking at a position in sales and marketing. a change as good as a holiday? i could be optimistic here…

so much is going in my noggin right now and it’s has been a bit tumultous up there. it hasn’t done much for my writing for nanowrimo, i have started on two stories as i couldn’t focus on the first. i think the biggest problem, which i am trying to overcome, is my incessant need to make sure it is a ‘good’ story which goes against the point of nano. i just need to get my head around just writing and not stopping to edit or berate myself for poor grammar! i will overcome…

seriously, why couldn’t life be a little less complicated?!

bah!

(‘complicated’ is sung by avril lavigne and is taken from her album ‘let go’)

~ by freddy on 4 November, 2009.