changes

ok. so i have a habit of saying this, but so much has happened since i last posted. seriously.

well, the secret is out… the big change that i was alluding to was the fact that i was in the process of being retrenched. it is now official. i am jobless and looking for work, but i am not too excited by the prospect of looking for work as an engineer though. it really sucks being an engineer, the salary may be good but for me the rewards are limited to just the salary. not really a way to live now is it?!

the way i see it, being retrenched isn’t such a bad thing. i have been unhappy for a long time now and this ‘opportunity’ has presented itself upon me and i was ready to jump up and grab it. i have toyed with the idea of going the distance with this opportunity and leap fully into ballet. the very thought of it makes my soul leap for joy (akin to an irish jig) but i get scared thinking of the possibilities out there! i am not 100% ready to join a ballet company, but that doesn’t mean i won’t be. which brings me to my next topic, i have a new ballet teacher. i haven’t left vix or nance yet but i have been yearning for some more training to become a male ballet dancer, and that means finding a male ballet teacher. i have found such a teacher but he comes at a price. financially, physically, mentally, emotionally, you name it. he isn’t cheap but he is good, and he expects you to push yourself and really up your own game if you are ready to go forth into the big bad world as a ballet dancer.

i am terrified (to say the least) but i am intrigued by this. so much life left to live, i guess i shouldn’t shy from it now should i?!

i can at least admit that the current economic climate has put me in a bad situation with the work being a bit scarce for engineers. i have had a few interviews but no one is biting so far. it’s going slowly but in the meantime i can dedicate my time to my dancing and really elevate myself onto the next level.

so, that is the gist of it. it’s all going to be ok at least, i can feel it. well, except for the fact that i managed to tear my right glute today! it’s not as painful as the last time it happened but it really couldn’t have happened at a more inopportune time. i doubt vix will be too excited to find out i may not be able to dance for a while… oh well, i will deal with that situation when i tell her. :-p

light and love to you all…

(‘changes’ is sung by will young and is taken from the album ‘let it go’)

times may change you

i am officially back from site now. i was ‘called’ back last week and i have been home now for a week. started ballet on monday and this week i have been quite stiff thanks to stretching and getting into the splits. i am quite surprised at how flexible i still am after 6 weeks of virtually no stretching at site! class has been fun although i am really itching to get in some good tech classes, the idea of executing double tours has me quite excited. also spent some good times with kat this week after class on mon and last night so it’s been a good week overall.

there something brewing in my life still, which i am still not at liberty to talk about now, but suffice it to say that it is a life-changing event. i am being quite cryptic here on purpose as i can’t give anything away just yet, and i am sorry for that but it has to be done. besides i like building up the suspense… hehe.

i have found my leather split-sole shoes locally after all, i managed to track a pair at my local dancestore ‘that’s dancing’. in a state of celebration of my return to jozi i bought a black pair and tan pair. i hope the sizing will be right because the size i tried on was a little bit too tight and we did go up another size in width and length. all in all i am happy that i have managed to find a local shoe supplier.

this weekend will be busy (again) tonight i am seeing sjcoutts who is back from her trip to the uk. tomorrow i am seeing louisa for mcbreakfast and the pink ladies (pen and abs) for a braai. pen lost her mother recently and i attended the funeral. it is so heartbreaking losing someone you love, and in pen’s case she was very close to her mum. she is faring better and this saturday the pink ladies are having a braai to thank everyone for their support. nas will be there and it will be a good night for pen to be distracted from her grief. the pink ladies have moved into a very stunning home that got me longing for a home with a garden again. spring is here and still my favourite season, nothing beats a nighttime breeze with the smell of sweet nectar (such as jasmine) flowing through the air.

on sunday i am seeing my friend chris-e whom i have not seen in a long while. he has introduced me to nanowrimo (national novel writing month) which i have now signed up for. the point of the exercise is to write 50 000 words in one month (approximately a 175 page novel) regardless of how good it is or what it’s about, you just need to write something. i think this will be a fun exercise and in the meantime i will try read quite a bit to get some inspiration.

i also got my jacket and waist coat from nas and i am really happy with them. nas took some photos and has put them up on his facebook group ’sew fabulous’, so if you are keen to see them then check them out. i haven’t downloaded the photos yet as nas still has my camera but when i get the photos i will show them off for you to see.

light and love to you all…

(‘times may change you’ is performed by goldfish and is taken from the album ‘caught in the loop’)

*i couldn’t find the song ‘times may change you’ but i found another song ‘this is how it goes’ by goldfish so at least you can get an idea of the style of music that is goldfish.*

your eyes

all i remember are your eyes
they held eternity in a brief glance
my captivity no disguise
will i get another chance?

the ocean in your gaze
i was lost, unafraid
warm in that misty haze
i long for love made

i long to be held aloft again
to feel your stare
boring into me without pain
knowing that you are still there

all i remember are your eyes
eternity filled with longing

(i’ve had) the time of my life

well, the news has been going around. patrick swayze has succumed to pancreatic cancer and on monday 14-09-2009 he passed away with family at his side. better known for his role as johnny castle in ‘dirty dancing’, patrick swayze was trained in classical ballet. he mad dance popular for boys in the ’80s and for this i salute you patrick swayze.

patrick swayze (b. 08/18/1952 - d. 09/14/2009)

gone is an icon of the ’80s. thank you for the inspiration and memories.

((i’ve had) the time of my life is sung by bill medley and jennifer warnes and is taken from the soundtrack to ‘dirty dancing’)

cloud nine

today is 09-09-09 which is actually quite cool because 9 is a unique number in that it represents the concept of the power of 3.

in magical reference the power of 3 is usually the union of the lord, lady and the one and similarly in catholic religion it represents the holy trinity (father, son and holy spirit). now that is for the number 3 but when you multiply the number 3 by itself you get the natural number 9.

so i am taking today as a sign of the coming together of everything and the union of ideas. i like that thought. it’s going to be a magical day and i intend to reap it’s rewards. changes are happening (some which i can’t divulge just yet) around me right now and i am in the process of trying to get my head around most of them. suffice it to say that i should have big news in the coming weeks… stay tuned folks.

i am still thinking of ways to get passive income my way but i have been too lazy to write this week and following the onslaught (on my back) from last week i have been unable to exercise this week nor have i been able to practice any ballet syllabus! i hope that from next week that i should be recovered well enough and motivated enough to get my ass into gear. on the plus side, the down time has allowed me to complete my linguistics assignments. i am really enjoying linguistics and that is a blessing seeing as the exams are just around the corner and i am so not panicked yet. i am a little bit concerned about my french exams though as i was unable to get any assignments (barring the compulsory ones of course) out to unisa as life got complicated coming to site in the beginning. this invariably means that i am royally screwed because of a poor semester mark going into the exam and now i have to get quite high marks in the exams to pass overall. i am going to give it my best shot at least and pray for the best result. on the other hand should i not make the exams (i.e. pass them) i can move them over to next year and then just prepare myself for a full on 2nd year with all my 2nd year english and french subjects taken together. let me not get ahead of myself though and i will just remain optimistic for the rest of the year. *grin*

well, it is time for me to cut this post here. i hope you all have a fabulous 9 day and may all good changes and things come your way.

light and love to you all…

(‘cloud nine’ is performed by evanescence and is taken from the album ‘the open door’)